This is my first blog...not really sure what I'm doing.  I am one of those deep thought type people and I'm thinking that this may help me to understand myself a little better if I start typing it up and putting out there for people that I don't even know.  I am currently in college and there has been a lot of confusing stuff going on in my life recently that has gotten me to thinking a lot.  My two biggest questions is where to go from here when I graduate and if I should get married or not.  The what to do after graduation is one that will just have to be answered in time, the married one most people tell me to wait the "right girl" will come along.  But I can't help but think what if the right girl is already here, but she's taken, or already dumped me.  I only ask this because my girlfriend of 1yr dumped me a month ago, and there is a girl in my class but she is in a serious relationship, but she fits what I want in a wife so very well to find another like her seems impossible.  Those are my thoughts for now.